My Experience

by livewhatyouknow

Arrived full of Love
But soon enough acclimated to the vibration of fear
Found myself extremely frightened
of so many things they say are normal here

Certain family dynamics frightened me so
Kept me in that state where only fear could get in
Even butterflies and kittens
I would only watch from the other side of the door

But from the beginning of the cycles of fear
I remember something inside me saying ‘no that’s not true’
‘That won’t be my experience’ and
‘That’s not what I’m going to do’

Something in me began conversing with a Source of Energy
that didn’t laugh, but felt supportive, when I said I believed in more
Started spending my time visioning and calling in more
Declaring what I would do here and what I’d use this experience for

Even spent that day on the hillside avoiding trouble inside
I wouldn’t come in until a four leaf clover was by my side
It changed me to have it
But it was I who had infused it with the power of my belief

I now Know when I arrived full of Love
I did something big during those early years
Some type of grounding that would be there
For my return once I cycled through the fears

Once a child who prayed to never become bitter
No matter what was happening all around me
I grew into someone who valued hugs Love and connection
Much more than the abundance that has easily flowed to me

2020 pretends to be a thief
But upon peeling back layer upon layer
And facing the grief
It’s just a return to that Love from when I was a newborn player

I NEVER let the “big” people convince me of their limiting beliefs
I’m not going to start now no matter how things might seem
I AM going to keep on raising my vibration and imagining more
Until I hear the knock of my wildest dreams at my door

I LOVE
I AM