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Category: Now

Victim or Creator

Victims are easily controlled and divided. The controllers love it when we choose victim mentality… when we surrender our ability to co-create our own reality, and instead, buy (literally and mentally) into theirs. They have gone to great measures to convince us to believe in a stressed out culture full of gloom and doom and utterly lacking Love rather than imagining more and creating “miracles” for ourselves. I’ve co-created plenty of “miracles” in my Life – big and small and I plan to keep doing just that. Yes, some days are hard… but, we dust ourselves off and we remember more and more of who and what we are… AND we rise to any occasion! Soon, we will rise together in new ways as a culture focused on healing and uniting in Love!

In many pre-planned and strategically coordinated ways, 2020 appears to be screaming gloom and doom very loud in hopes that we won’t hear the truth brewing within each of us – that there is so much more to this Life (to say the very least) AND so we won’t feel the shift in consciousness that is absolutely happening. If you haven’t done so already, Love yourself enough to let go of how things used to be and any desire to return to “normal” – it never was! We never should have accepted any of it. The culture that has been designed to control us is not the truth and certainly not the way of the very near future.

We are living in extremely exciting times. We all chose to be here for this transition. We have a choice in how we will experience it – as victims or as Creators. Stepping in to our rights as Sovereign Beings is a choice we will be able to embody more and more as things continue to unfold. We are so much more than what they want us to know and they’ve done a great job manufacturing a sick society… the time is upon us to remember and awaken to All that we are and all that we will choose to Create together.

No matter how things look – there is something TRULY amazing heading our way… we must stay strong and allow ourselves to feel extremely excited about the future… let’s get quiet enough to feel it, vision it, focus on it with enthusiasm, align our vibration with it and draw it towards us with joy – after all, that is what a Creator does. We are Creators! Sent with Love!

My Experience

Arrived full of Love
But soon enough acclimated to the vibration of fear
Found myself extremely frightened
of so many things they say are normal here

Certain family dynamics frightened me so
Kept me in that state where only fear could get in
Even butterflies and kittens
I would only watch from the other side of the door

But from the beginning of the cycles of fear
I remember something inside me saying ‘no that’s not true’
‘That won’t be my experience’ and
‘That’s not what I’m going to do’

Something in me began conversing with a Source of Energy
that didn’t laugh, but felt supportive, when I said I believed in more
Started spending my time visioning and calling in more
Declaring what I would do here and what I’d use this experience for

Even spent that day on the hillside avoiding trouble inside
I wouldn’t come in until a four leaf clover was by my side
It changed me to have it
But it was I who had infused it with the power of my belief

I now Know when I arrived full of Love
I did something big during those early years
Some type of grounding that would be there
For my return once I cycled through the fears

Once a child who prayed to never become bitter
No matter what was happening all around me
I grew into someone who valued hugs Love and connection
Much more than the abundance that has easily flowed to me

2020 pretends to be a thief
But upon peeling back layer upon layer
And facing the grief
It’s just a return to that Love from when I was a newborn player

I NEVER let the “big” people convince me of their limiting beliefs
I’m not going to start now no matter how things might seem
I AM going to keep on raising my vibration and imagining more
Until I hear the knock of my wildest dreams at my door

I LOVE
I AM

 

Never The Same – BETTER!

Sacred not sterile!
Beauty in All things!

When our eyes are graced with wonder, the world reveals its wonders to us. There are people who see only dullness in the world and that is because their eyes have already been dulled. So much depends on how we look at things. The quality of our looking determines what we come to see.

John O’Donohue, Beauty: The Invisible Embrace

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The holy instant the news of the California lockdown/stay at home order entered my reality (months ago now)… I knew I would never be the same… that very instant.

[It is worth noting that it isn’t about staying home – that is something I do well and have done so by design for many years… it’s about much much more than that.]

Upon hearing the order, my Soul had a visceral and intense reaction felt in my body and beyond… in a hard to explain way… it physically hurt to live in a world where the illusion of separation was being forced on us in such a strange and new way and I knew instantly that something nefarious was at work. The powers that be have always loved to divide and separate us in a multitude of ways… but this physical 6-foot thing was just ludicrous to me and seemed to suffocate my Soul in ways I cannot possibly describe. The idea of people being weaponized in each other’s minds,  the thought of people entering hospitals alone, without their loved ones, the complete disregard for the many miraculous ways we are All connected to one another (seen and unseen), the utter disregard for one’s choices on life and death – the loss of sacredness of life/birth and death/passing (as they attempt to replace it with sterility), the fear (rather than truth of how amazing our bodies really are) being instilled rapidly and dangerously into the collective… the blatant lie being touted that we can be separate… there just are no words really… just… … … [this would be too long to say all I really feel] …

So, I got busy for a few days with various projects, creating an array of things to busy the mind… but the thoughts still crept in… I wondered about humanity and how others would be handling this and/or what they may be thinking about or doing to process it all. I realized that people would probably just entrench themselves deeper into whatever point of view or stance they already had… so, perhaps, if you always believe what the government tells you then you just do so even more now, if you blame the left or right for everything then probably even more so, if you trust the news, if you question everything, question nothing, seek truth, keep a closed mind, keep an open mind, etc., etc., etc., … whatever you are used to/comfortable doing would just be done even more so now… I thought that would be the case in those early days… but, we are well beyond a few weeks now, and I would very much like to hope for more from and for humanity now. Sometimes things are meant to change us – deeply.

Honestly, I couldn’t have come even close to imagining the actual changes I would go through during this time, or how true the knowing that I was instantly and forever changed had been. Many years back, I had my eyes opened to a few very important lies we were being fed about the food we eat/nutrition, health/medicine, illness/wellness and much more and I began to expand my own vision for a life well lived, etc. That led to many changes and several roads less traveled that I hadn’t ever pictured myself on before (to say the least). But, I sort of considered those lies or untruths I had uncovered to be innocent enough and perpetuated on us simply because they didn’t know any better at the time, etc. I didn’t focus on the root or cause/intentions. I focused only on the solutions, knowing and choosing to live in the manner that understands that whatever I focus on expands, etc. I wanted to expand the best of Life!

Awakening has been on my radar for quite some time now… just in other ways than the recent eye opening ways I had not yet considered. I was so intentionally focused on the light for so long that I would not look at the darkness. Well, now I have, and I am not one to dabble (not at all), so it’s been a dark night of the soul mixed with rounds and rounds and layers and layers of reckoning and piecing puzzles together, etc.

The truth is out there… seekers will find it…

It is also within us…

It only lives within us!!!

I am really not one to focus too much of my energy in an effort to convince or cajole others into seeing things the way I do… I’m more into inspiration, spark ignition, encouragement, love, great conversations, letting the writing come through and sending it out in love, etc. …I know that people can only see through the veil of their own looking and just exactly what they are ready for…

We are in extremely interesting times and we are here witnessing it, not by accident, but, by design. My understanding of my purpose in all of this is still making itself known to me as I continue to decipher things in ways that make sense to me and deepen my innerstanding of what it means to be here. For me, I gather and gather and gather, always taking time to ask and lean back and allow space for illumination, and, as I go, I co-create and inhabit a sort of hybrid that feels like truth for me/All – always keeping an open heart and mind and spirit that will allow for expansion and/or correction, etc.

If you’re still reading at this point, maybe you’re looking for a little nudge because you know there is so much more… so, here it is…

open your eyes a bit wider

make your heart a bit warmer

focus so your vision may become a bit clearer

expand your knowing so that you may live it

raise your vibration

all these things, done, in some way that makes sense for your highest good and that of the collective… we will inhabit the world we envision for ourselves…this illusion of a disgusting, sick, separate, sterile, disconnected world they are trying to force on us simply won’t do… it will crumble. We must envision more and then go there together!

The great awakening!

We are a collective!

Love wins!

I Am.

As we learn and grow, our reality shifts and shapes around us. It is nothing short of a miracle! How exciting! Let’s think of it and see it that way. Let’s go! Sending you love and joy and the absolute refusal to allow fear near you in any way, shape or form!!!!

Supernatural YOU!

Unlearning the false natural you have been taught!

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We are so powerful! All of us! That has been hidden from us! How that has happened is not what matters most right now. What matters most right now is that we step into our power. Some part of you knows that you are creating your life. You have envisioned things and then watched them come true countless times before. You’re not just living what life throws at you each day; you’re creating it – All of it. If you want proof, go within and ask… or lean back and look with open hearted eyes. You have done this. You will do it again! You are already doing it.

What the world needs now is for us to drop the limits that have been falsely placed on the visions we believe to be within our grasp. We are limitless. The only limits are the ones we place there. The reason it is so easy to place limits there is because that is what has been programmed into us to see. I won’t waste energy or time we no longer have writing about how it’s done or all the many ways it’s done (at least not today). I have a feeling those are becoming more and more clear to us each day now. I certainly hope so! I will, however, put my energy on my promise to you that you can vision more – bigger, better, more awesome than anything you’ve dared to see yet… I know this is true and I know that you know it too… it’s the truth inside us All. Truth has a frequency – you can feel it.

We must focus our attention on what we would like to see in the world AND we must get serious about making sure we’re reaching for the highest vibrations in our daily lives as we hold these visions that will become our future. We cannot arrive at any future that we did not first see in our heads. That is how it works… vision first… then reality. Over these past weeks of this current global situation, as my family and I have participated in various global meditations and tried to hold the vision of Earth and what we would like to see… so many things have become clear to me… and so many are still incredibly fuzzy.

It hit me like a ton of bricks one morning when I realized there are not many positive images out there (that is putting it mildly – it’s none really) that have been placed in our programming that show a beautiful future for Earth and our future generations… it is so easy to see the countless dystopian images we’ve been fed – the freaky Hunger Games scenarios and worse – usually lacking any personal identity, merged with technology in creepy ways and obvious slaves to the establishment of the time. That icky movie has been placed in our programming time and again and again and again and again. Super easy to picture. Well, DON’T! Remove it from your programming – look the other way. To do that, we must VISION better! We will have to make it up… it isn’t being fed to us. Let’s do it! Let’s go there! Vision it as if it already exists!!!  Then, it will!!!!

I won’t pretend it will be easy (there is so much clutter to de-program)… but with the frequency of unconditional love and a return to our limitless selves – we can do it! What could be more important?! Let’s get excited about it. Let’s figure out how to do it (now, like it’s here… because it is). Let’s research and talk to each other about it. Let’s connect through our visions. Let’s bring them to life. Vision exactly how you would like to see things on Earth – well beyond anything we’ve seen in society so far!!! Let’s Adventure!!! It’s time! Now!!!!!!

That morning I mentioned trying to think of anything positive or lovely that has been shown to us in regards to the future… the only thing I could think of was Avatar … so beautiful, so connected to each other… then I quickly remembered it wasn’t Earth and why the humans were there, etc. Ugh. But at least there was a beautiful image I could hold onto for a moment. All I CAN DO is get busy seeing something BEAUTIFUL! I AM!

We have a collective power that is staggering to understand… we CAN call it in!!!!

Sending you unconditional love, abundant joy and outrageously imaginative energy today and always!

Becoming

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There are so many paths to becoming the ocean…so many ways to inch closer to realizing what we truly are and even more ways to forget and be human. Leonard Cohen left us with an abundance of blessings to inspire us to keep inching towards Becoming and to comfort and be with us when our humanness gets in the way. Thank you so very much Mr. Cohen for sharing your eternal spirit with the world in so many ways.

Love

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Love is always a choice. It is the only real thing that exists. It dwells in every thing just waiting to be accessed. It is easy to forget that truth and get swept up in other illusions. But once we remember, it is even easier to get back into the frequency of love…within.

Reading this old favorite – The Frequency of Love has blessed me so much this week. The Universe sent it back to me and I am so grateful. I send it out to you hoping it may bless you in some small way too. May you take the time to read it and find that place within you that vibrates in the frequency of love…your most natural state.

Love will immediately enter into any mind that truly wants it.
(p. 55) – A Course in Miracles

Sending you love and joy!

The Art of Living Together

“Living together is an art.” I love these words strung together in the way they are below. Thich Nhat Hanh says it so well.

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It’s lovely to consider how I may listen well to those I live with and contribute more fully to their everyday happiness. Even with my good intentions, it may be easy to miss the mark on the thing I value most…loving presence and peace in the moment with my sweet little family. So easy to get busy and full of ambition that makes the sweetness of the moments dull at times…

One may also consider how to see the good intentions of others and choose the mindfulness in the moment to bring more peace, joy, love and “happiness” to the art of living together well. Maybe holding others to our perceived “happiness” requirements simply robs us of the joy within the moment waiting there to bless us.

May we all live well together in the truest happiness that is the present moment! Sending love and joy!

Nurturing My Creative Self – Thank You Universe for Showing Me the “Way”

Sometimes when you find yourself on a spiritual seeking endeavor or a “path” towards enlightenment or simply trying to become the best version of yourself you leave part of you behind. With the best intention I kind of did that a few years back. I thought attachment to “my story” would only have been from the ego and I did my best to set it aside and not feel attached to it any longer. Even as I look at the “about” section and “my story” page within it on my blog I realize that although what I wrote seemed like truth for me at the time, it isn’t quite all there really. It’s some words I thought wouldn’t offend anyone or ruffle any feathers or take me down the attachment to old wounds road. I did acknowledge that I wasn’t really into my story anymore and offered a brief one anyway. I can see now that there will be some editing to be done in the future. I won’t scrap the old one, I’ll just keep updating it with the journey and the willingness to do so becomes my real story.

I do love being old enough now to lean back and see how everything has worked in my life so far and I couldn’t feel more grateful for all of the life lessons. I can feel the evolution of things and the miracles and beautiful way they fit together are astounding. I love the tough stuff as much as the rest; even more perhaps. Although, it is nice that my “problems” are much more tolerable these days than they once were and my more recent stories never end with a traumatic and awkward twist as the old ones sometimes do. 🙂 Over the last year I realized that I had abandoned a part of me that needed some nurturing. Many things happened that opened old wounds and took me back to remembering things I had blocked out and practically forgotten. I recently felt so deeply that I needed to nurture that version I had abandoned. I hate the idea of the wounded inner child dominating the future or even one moment of the Now we are truly meant to live though, so I was at a bit of a crossroads trying to figure it out.

I accidentally (there are no accidents) stared a childhood monster in the face via a mug shot on the internet recently. I found myself completely reacquainted with the frightened little girl who once lived inside me that I had known so well. Being somewhat comforted at the thought that that particular monster couldn’t get me anymore and realizing that I had been living with some fear of that happening someday, I quickly found a brave side of me allow myself to reach out to forgotten family members and lost childhood relationships I may have been able to have without that fear. A baby-step reach out, but at least something. I realized how much family I have lost over the years for various reasons. I remembered things I had completely forgotten. I knew there was work to be done to help me circle back and nurture my abandoned self while maintaining all the presence and wisdom from the many years of constantly seeking evolution since.

I’d been reading various things and one book had suggested recalling your specific hell-and-back to identify your tribe and the specific things you could help others through. In fact, these sentiments may have started the whole remembering process and “accidental” confrontation of old trauma. I knew that my future and my finding and answering my true calling depended on my willingness to look at the past with healthy detachment without outright abandonment of the wounded self. So there I was working with the past three books, making my own so-called workbook to really live the lessons I was learning. I was building confidence and praying for presence and consciousness while recalling and reliving old trauma with the intention to bring healing to myself and others all the while.

In comes… the Artist’s Way. A Lifeline! Pure Love from the Universe!

I am indeed very grateful for this blessing that came into my life several years ago called the Artist’s Way. It was given to me by a dear friend and sat patiently on my shelf for over six years or so. A few weeks ago it was pulsating on the shelf and screaming at me to pull it down and experience it. I had already chosen my next read, but felt the pull towards it so strongly as I randomly walked past the bookshelves that night. Thank goodness I listened and felt all that the Universe was trying to bless me with.

I knew nothing of what the book was about, it hadn’t really spoken to me when I first received it and from then on it simply looked pretty on the shelf. It had never been the right time. From the second I grabbed it that night, I knew it was meant for me now at just the right time. It turns out that it is a twelve week endeavor to recover your creative self. It is hard for me to put into words just how perfect it is for me now.

As I said, the whole wounded inner child thing really turns me off and feels like a step back rather than forward. However, as I have shared, I knew there was work along those lines to be done and I was (and still am) willing to do it. This gift of the Artist’s Way is so lovely. It matches my best intentions perfectly and provides the path that is in line with all I have studied so hard for the past ten years and all that I have lived through before. It will allow the nurturing of my inner child with the beautiful intent of recovering the creative being that dwells within…within me and within us all.

It would be more words than anyone has time to read to describe all that it is. I can do so over the next few months hopefully. I’ll just say that I signed the contract. I’m in it to finish it. I already know that the “morning pages” and the “artist’s dates” I’ve committed to are life changing endeavors. I am so excited to share more as I go. I couldn’t feel more blessed than I do to see the perfection in this gift from the Universe at this time. I am never ever at a loss for words, but to even try to describe the hundreds of synchronicities and dots connecting and showing up as miracles and Universe hugs making this process available to me right now would be impossible. The wordless acceptance is much better. “Thank you” is thing that feels perfect to say about it so far.

My dear friend that gave me the book years ago is going through the process with me now. What a gift! I had one friend say with enthusiasm that she had gone through it years ago but didn’t finish it. I encouraged her to do it again, knowing that we experience things so differently as we change and grow. I sent a copy to a friend on Monday, just this moment another friend sent a photo of her copy that had just arrived in the mail after we recently discussed it. Such a blessing! I recently purchased the version that is written for parents in hopes of also bringing more creativity to my children’s lives. I welcome the opportunity to hear from anyone that has been blessed by this course/book. Do tell me how it showed up in your life if it has. Join me on the journey if you like! We are all creative beings. We are all artists creating our lives. We can bring our creative selves and more creativity to whatever it is we spend our time doing. It is all Art! Our Life is the canvas.

In a sense, as we are creative beings, our lives become our work of art. –Julia Cameron, the Artist’s Way

I hope to post about “the morning pages” soon. I wish the blessing that they are for everyone! If you’re at all intrigued, just search “the morning pages” and see for yourself. Fun!

Sending love and joy today and always! Wishing us all time with our creative artist within!

Playtime!

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My reading last week inspired many thoughts of play. In Martha Beck’s Finding Your Way in a Wild New World, she shared a beautiful story of how she envisioned her infinity loop symbol of a wayfinder’s life as a “never-ending, self-sustaining loop of rest and play.” It was lovely. Thoughts about her story mixed with those of past teachings on the unfamiliar and creativity and more by other favorites led me to wish the blessing below for everyone today. May this blessing carry us through the entire workweek ahead and beyond by embracing it one moment at a time:

May we all approach whatever it is we are doing today with the spirit of play. May we bring the excited feelings of exploration, discovery and delight to whatever lay before us. May we have fresh eyes and playful hearts that allow us to enjoy our work and let it take shape as something new for us no matter how many times we may think we have done it before. May we always experience each moment as fresh, new and alive with playful opportunities. May we dwell in playtime until it’s time to rest and prepare to play some more.

I’ve had visions throughout recent days of how I used to play teacher and mommy as a child. I can smile and embrace those two things playfully each day. Playtime is always there waiting for me. I created this life through my playtime as a child and now I can live it. I used to play all kinds of office games a lot too. Been there, did that as well. It was fun sometimes. I truly have created a life that is a lot like the one I used to create in my playtime as a young girl. I even banged away at my typewriter back then embracing my love of words as I wrote all kinds of stories and various ramblings. It’s funny how all aspects of my favorite childhood games are realities in my life today. I used to play roller-skate instructor to imaginary kids a lot though, that I have not done in years. Ha! What fun to remember!

Reading some of the great lessons on finding what we’re meant to do in the life often hint at or say outright that we should do what brings us the very most joy. Martha Beck asserts that we should only do what brings us joy. The thing is, we don’t have to feel burdened to change our careers, make sweeping life changes or even alter one thing, to immediately and with great success, shift our approach towards whatever we are doing today as if it is our playtime. Just about anything can be a game and bring joy. Maybe I’ll play cooking show while making dinner tonight like I used to making my lunch every morning before school as kid…that was fun. We decide how it feels to do what we do each day. We can make it fun. Life can be filled with Playtime!

As I write this I can hear the kids pretending all kinds of cool stuff in their rooms. It warms my heart to have those sounds as my background chatter. Whenever we run errands or go to various appointments, or even if people come to service something at the house, the kids are playing close attention at all times. Then soon enough you can hear them playing those things out in their rooms. Current favorites include airport, pharmacy, dog-trainer, tennis instructor, chef, cooking competitions with their stuffed animals, school, tennis tournament with their stuffed animals and more. Wouldn’t it be lovely if the adults actually performing those jobs and/or tasks could feel the joyful delight found in child’s play as they flow through their days each day. Sometimes you do run into those people and it feels good. I wish that we all may encourage, notice, share, spread and delight in joyfulness today and always. I pray to remember all this myself as I flow through my so-called duties throughout the days. I can feel how it felt to play and enjoy these things as a kid…even driving in my pretend car and running to the pretend bank felt fun…I only hope to remember it and truly Live it in the moment that it comes each day. If I forget, I can always notice it and jump into playfulness in the next moment, right?! 🙂

Wishing you one playful moment after another, leading to a life of playtime! Sending joy and love!

Creative New Year

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Bridge To Terabithia—what a wonderful gift! It was my childhood favorite. Ms. Rhodes read it aloud to my fifth grade class and it touched my soul. I read it aloud to my children a few years back to return the gift. Last night our family watched the 2007 movie version. It was a delight and a wonderful spark to ignite the imagination just before ringing in the New Year. Every time this story visits me, it blesses me in new, lovely and refreshing ways. I am so grateful!

Imagination is such a gift! I love thinking about this today…what will my New Year be like? What will I create? What joy can I bring? How can I bring more connection and love to my life and to those around me? I want to be brave and build a bridge that is so wide it lets my most creative self live in this world and that world with my ever expanding soul tribe always close by to enjoy Life together.

So many fun dreamy goals this year! Lots of routine and ritual goals on my mind too. I promise to share the ups and downs of them both here all year.

Each and every day, and in fact, each and every Moment is a brand new one to embrace. Wishing you and yours a wonderful New Now…today, right Now and always! Sending you Love and joy!

“It ain’t what they call you; it’s what you answer to.” —W.C. Fields

Cheers to creative living! Have fun creating a great life!

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