My books have long been my best friends. They have always been such a source of inspiration and support through so many phases and circumstances. I love to watch the dots connect as the Universe sends me messages and nudges me towards the perfect messages for me and embraces me in what I call Universe or God Hugs.
I had kind of a tough year last year in many ways and I now know that some of my thoughts and statements had a lot to do with that. Last year I actually said out loud on various occasions something to the effect of…”I’m sad, I have no books, nothing to read…” I even went on to describe that I couldn’t connect to anything the way I used to and that of all the things I tried to read nothing was touching me as it once had.
I know better than saying something like that out loud or even allowing that thought to take shape in my head. It’s like giving that thought power, making it so, sending a wish to the Universe, etc. So, that is what happened in many ways. I was completely out of touch with my “best friends” the books. As a result, I was out of touch with the deepest part of me as well.
I am happy to report that I am a blessed woman these days. My friends are piled up all around me. Some old ones are showing themselves to me in new ways. Many new ones have appeared and blessed me abundantly. I have embraced new types of books and allowed stories to come to me in wonderfully new and exciting ways. I have once again opened the channel that I have always used so well to communicate with the Divine and Unknown. It makes my heart burst to feel the sweet embrace once again.
I have a lot to say about this topic and I know this experience, although lonely, was perfect as it was teaching me so much. But, for purposes of this post, the main thing that strikes me is just to acknowledge for myself and encourage others about declaring things in life to be one way or another. I was pretty darn sure that I wasn’t able to enjoy my reading as I always had. I felt stuck, lonely and uninspired. My health suffered and I was unable to stick to so many of the things I know align with my beliefs and passions for truly Living.
The very limiting thought that I had allowed to take shape in my head and outwardly spoken to a cherished friend, my husband and even my daughter was making itself so in my life because I had declared it as my experience. It didn’t have to be that way. I was even doing a number on myself thinking that I couldn’t connect to my books or any new books anymore because I was meant to be working on other writing projects or something along those lines…I just found all kinds of ways to support that limiting and somewhat destructive thought and it grew and became what seemed to be “real” to me.
Once I figured it out, the channel opened back up again and my goodness does it feel good. Anyone who knows me, knows I love sharing books. It’s kind of like wanting my friends to meet my other friends. All that fun has started again and it is so great. It’s funny, I used to insist that people should read this or that specific book, now I tend to send way too many books to others so they can choose the one for them and their own perfect timing, etc. It’s now like I want to share with them that connection that whispers to them and leads them to their perfect experience they’re meant to embrace. I no longer assume that through any one book they will have the same experience I had, I only love the idea of helping them find the perfect experience for them.
Thank goodness I also read a lot with the kids for homeschool and enjoyed a lot of our learning last year or else I would have gone completely mad. I may not have been hanging out with my best friends, but I was able to survive on other messages and at least learning something… Now that I’ve been open again to the messages that are coming my way through my favorite channel, the new books and old ones are working together with the educational things I enjoy with my kids. It is like everything I enjoyed before about this magical channel for me is now drawing sources from a million more places and the synchronicities are amazing me even more.
An interesting outcome from this experience is that I can now be blessed with multiple messages across a much larger number of sources. I used to kind of only want to read one thing at a time. I was pretty stubborn about this. Now, I have at least four different books going at the same time and the educational lessons on top of that. I let them speak to me more and tell me what the message for me that day is. I have embraced new types of literature and allowed old ones to be read in a different way. In one morning reading session, I often experience the craziest tingle of awe and gratitude and how magical our Universe is as three completely different books put a magical puzzle together before my eyes and delight my soul. It’s a lovely way to start the day!
I am also finding other ways to connect with different types of stories. I haven’t read much fiction in the past ten years having found my shelves overflowing with plenty of non-fiction that held my interest so firm. Now, I’m more open and can see that there are so many ways that storytelling takes shape from the depths of others’ souls that connect just as powerfully to my soul and are equally as “real” as any non-fiction that has been so powerful in my life in the past. The stories are opening my imagination and allowing more miracles to take shape in my life. They are in some ways bringing me back to Life a bit and expanding my horizon for the future.
I know that I held those limiting thoughts about my friends the books. I know that it blocked all that wanted to come through and bless me. I know I suffered in choosing that. I also know that the timing in all of it is perfect and I am now more open, more inspired, more grateful, more ready for a blessed future than ever. It All is perfect. It happens just as it should. All will be well. This opening I am feeling now makes me feel more ready to share from an even deeper level here in this space that has brought me such comfort, healing and hope. I plan to jump back into my writing here and allow myself to share more of my stories…always with the intention of bringing healing to the world through first healing myself and then hoping that can also bring love and healing to others.
Sending you peace, love, joy and gratitude. May you be blessed with all that inspires you and the courage to embrace it today and always.