Peace is an attribute IN you. You cannot find it outside.
—A Course In Miracles
Nothing outside yourself can save you;
nothing outside yourself can give you peace.
But this also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you
or disturb your peace or upset you in any way.
—A Course In Miracles
My soul has been patiently waiting for me to return to the nurturing choices that help it thrive. Life has been so busy lately that I have found myself in more of a survival mode than a truly living all that I know mode. Many of my goals for daily life and the month of May in general have been set aside to simply get through the days. The gift of realizing that my only true goal is peace is the lovely side effect of having experienced this undesired pace and various unusual circumstances. I love having this space in the world to help me listen as my soul speaks and guides me back to all that I am truly meant to BE and helps me remember who I Am and what I Am really here to do.
The month of May has been a bit of a doozy (for lack of a better word); so much going on, so many things on my list, so much to do and so many people needing my energy. I chose to give my energy and often found myself with almost none left. I knew it was happening and I was simply trying to stay afloat rather than using all my tools to rejuvenate along the way and soar with my soul. Sometimes these things happen. We can only do our best at any given time. I did well in May in many ways as I was able to manage multiple life situations, accept many lovely invitations, help people in need and complete my many functions in life. But, I completely missed the boat on sailing with my soul throughout all of this, thus missing the opportunity to perform my most essential Life function – letting my soul shine through. I shared my soul in many ways, but wasn’t really keeping the light shinning from the inside. The inside is always the answer. Everything fades from the outside. My body has let me know that enough is enough and it is time to make time for the soul nurturing and peace that the essential me craves and desires. The soul uses the body to tell us how we are really doing and when changes are required.
As I have watched myself completely burnout physically over the past few days, I still find myself with a deep peace at my core, and for this I am truly grateful. Even though I am suffering physically in many ways, I feel as though my soul is intact. I look around and I know that there are so many things needing my attention and that my health and vitality has completely taken a backseat. I have so many things I want to do. I need to get my house in order in so many ways, both physically and metaphorically. I know I will. I know that I know how. I know that I have only now and don’t want to waste any moments of this wonderful Life without peace and compassion for myself and everyone around me. I don’t have to wait until all of my list is complete or my various goals to get things back on track have happened. I realize that my only goal is peace and I can have it right now. Every now. I only need to choose it again and again. I know how to do that. Sometimes I am really good at it and sometimes not so much. But, the key is, I know that peace is the choice that is always there waiting for me. I can have it whenever I choose. What more could I ask for? Maybe just that you have it too and we share it with each other! 🙂
To have peace, teach peace to learn it.
—A Course In Miracles
We are all so busy, we have so much coming at us and so many things we feel we need to live up to and/or accomplish. I have figured out that peace is truly my only goal. This was not an easy realization for me as someone who is constantly preaching about and trying to achieve her personal best. Even as a little girl, I could only truly enjoy playing in my room if it was completely organized. Having goals and tools that help us reach those goals is great, but not in sacrifice of peace. I am so grateful for the many tools I have been shown over the past several years that make staying in the flow of Life easier. From time to time I completely get off track and cease using all these wonderful tools. It would be completely counter-productive for me to wait to feel happy until I can check all of these tasks off my list. Instead, I can just turn towards the peace that lives inside me. Just as, when anything isn’t going the way I had hoped or people are not behaving just as I would like them to, I can still turn towards peace and realize that changing things won’t bring me peace, but finding it inside me at any given moment, will. The peace that comes from having things just perfect or just as we would want them, isn’t true peace. The peace that comes from being in the middle of a mess and allowing joy and a sweet peaceful smile to embrace you is the true peace that we are all meant to dwell in. We can practice making it more of a normal state for us. When something is seemingly “disappointing” or “irritating” or difficult to accept, we can simply choose peace in spite of it all as our other option and our only true purpose.
Today I pray to remember the peace that is always available to me at any moment. I pray to dwell in it more often and feel the utter joy it brings and laughter it allows. I pray that those around me will be touched by my remembering this peace and that I can help bring it to them as they in turn remind me of it with their receiving it. I pray that peace expands and touches all of us through our own breath in everything we do today and always. I pray that when we forget and get stressed out in our daily tasks, we can be kind to ourselves as we remember what we have inside us and return to peace.
Sending you love, joy and peace! It feels good to be here! I was only able to post on the first and last day of this month. I have missed it and my soul is so grateful to share with you here. I will be back soon!!!!