Given sincerity, there will be enlightenment. —The Doctrine of the Mean, 200 B.C.E.
These words bring me so much comfort. Since stumbling upon this quote in my reading, I have recalled them throughout my days many times and each time they have brought me peace. We never really stumble into these things…they are gifts we are given at the precise moment we can receive them. I am grateful.
Along the path towards truly living what I know and continuously expanding what that means, I sometimes find myself coasting, sometimes walking a steady pace, often crawling, intermittently hobbling along and occasionally standing still. Lately, I have been standing still and trying to let things come to me as I attempt figuring out Life’s whispers.
There are many helpful habits to support living peaceful presence and yet at the same time, so many things knocking on the door with their seeming need to get done. The beautiful dance of a balanced Life uses those healthy habits to prepare for whatever may come…but, what to do when there just doesn’t seem to be enough time or energy to get it all in? While standing still on my path lately, I have been fluctuating between my Life-giving habits that ground me in the peace that is authentically who I am at my essence and the smaller version of me that reacts and gets things done.
Over the past few weeks, I have struggled to find the balance and time to use my favorite habits to help me. My observations indicate that I am able to live my best Life when I can read, write, exercise, meditate, pray, cook fresh healthy vegan foods so my family can eat well, have soul-to-soul time with my family and great conversations with loved ones on a regular/daily basis. These are the things my soul craves. Lately I get into a groove on a few of these habits and then fall as I try to honor another important habit all the while leaving enough time for my real life duties and commitments to others. I have been trying to restructure, rearrange, reorganize, etc. It has been rather funny watching me thrive at one or two habits and terribly miss the others as I juggle them around with very little consistency…it’s hard to even call them habits right now. It will be fine. It always works out. It is just time for me to hobble about as I get my footing back. I feel it coming and I have the deep knowing that all is well.
I can make the choices that support me as I regain my balance of my peace centered habits. I have done it before and it will happen again. At this point in my life, the not being able to do it all is actually quite good for me. It is important to be able to be kind to myself even when I’m not at the top of my game. I have always been hard on myself. Over the past few years, I find myself fighting off the personality that won’t do something unless she can do it perfectly; it’s good to grow out of this type of pressure on one’s self. Life isn’t about doing things perfectly. There is no such thing as perfect. There is only Life and striving for perfection keeps us from living it.
The other night, as I sat in the bathtub at the end of a long day, I started to get down on myself and attempt a personal pep talk about getting up super early the next morning and really going for it with all of my habits…as if getting things done is the secret to peace. Ha! Then, I remembered the words from the quote above. My perception shifted and I started leaning back in my mind and looking at the picture of my life in larger portions. I quit looking at all the tiny little details and saw the bigger dots connecting throughout my years. As I looked from a higher position, I saw how I have heard the whisper and wholeheartedly followed it again and again. These whispers rushed through my head reminding me that no matter what my current status on habits looks like, I can still hear the whisper. I live for the whisper that my soul’s current provides. I saw so many beautiful connections that the whisper has provided and felt hugged and loved in the knowing that it is always there. I returned to the moment. Always the same answer.
Healthy habits are helpful and important and they can keep me centered in peace. I will always strive to honor them well, but I must balance that desire and keep them as a sacred practice rather than allowing them to escalate to disappointment when not achieved. Peace is not always found in achievement. The peace that comes from knowing I have been listening to and living from the whisper brings me back to the moment where now is the only thing that matters and Life is living me well.
One thing I am never lacking is sincerity. There will be enlightenment. I can peacefully breathe and join in the connectedness I Am to all things. Whether I am fulfilling all my desired habits or not, the moment is always there and love is all that truly matters. Whew.
Wishing you peaceful presence today and always! May you be blessed with the perception to see how life is whispering to you and the courage to follow it towards the joy it encompasses. Life is whispering to us all. Happy listening!
Sending you love and joy!